Every compliment I get is a slap in my face
Because I can't accept myself or the complements they give.
I go to the Internet, to search “love yourself quotes”,
It comes up with all of these useless notes.
They tell me to love myself but never tell me how -
How to love my small frame instead of my threaded brows.
The hardest thing each day, is going to bed at night,
Because the war in my head, it's blocking the light.
Some mornings I look in the mirror and see,
A girl as perfect as perfect can be,
But most mornings I see a girl way below ordinary
Drowning in nothing but her invisible insecurities.
Used to think my lips were ugly, big and fat,
But there are people out there getting surgeries just for that.
All this makeup doesn’t make sense, those brushes look the same,
Can't do anything about that, got no one to blame.
Chose to see all them girls, with their pretty angled cheeks,
Forgot to appreciate my jawline, for always being on fleek.
Now, I know my legs are short,
But I keep praising my Lord
because at least I can walk.
When it comes to flaws,
You can’t accept or ignore
Because these standards around you
are coming down with more force.
The girl in the mirror accuses me everyday
Of the appreciation I cannot give her,
The love I keep away.
She whispers in my ear "you need to change your way"
But then I count my insecurities and I think it's too late
She keeps on reminding me these insecurities are okay
Because everyone I see is going through the same phase.
Malaika Gilani is a Pakistani author, blogger and student who has been trying to make the world a better place. At the age of 16, she published her first book 'Untold Journeys', as a source to inspire people and show them they are not alone. She then worked on an international anthology 'I Bared My Chest' as a platform to connect with people all across the world.